nainiaj

hit me like a ray of sun
burning through my darkest night
you're the only one that I want
think i'm addicted to your light




and that was taken on Hari Raya Haji around 3pm plus at the Yishun dam when we drove past. nice, yes?

I love you fondling my fingers

anything for you my love  :)

Was out with the best friend and the big little sister yesterday.  Watched Halloween 2, just because Dee said it's Halloween.  But we so wasted our money cos the plot was weak, and it just wasn't nice.  But I couldn't stop laughing at Dee who had her ears closed and her eyes away from the screen like half the time.  Then Adik was beside me asking the girl to hurry up and all. hahaha.

Dropped by BABW before Dee and Adik came.  I was glad I was around for last year's Halloween when we dressed up as angels and devils.  This year has no specific theme, and half of them were just wearing uniform.  But Rahman looked hilarious in his devil-ballerina getup. hahaha.  And.  Fatin the Lady Gagap, Jane and I immediately "exchanged news". hahaha.

The whole world was at Vivo yesterday so it seemed.  Bumped into Nana and Tiq, and then later with Immi.  Oh how I suddenly missed those ITE days when everything was just so slack.

    

   

   

I have zero inspiration for today's entry. Life this past month or so has been very blah. So as usual, I'll go random today.

Internship has been alright. On some fun days, I get to go on spontaneous trips out of the office to get kain batik, or wrapping paper, or go for a hotel visit. On other days, when it's boring, my ass gets stuck on the chair like 7 hours of the day. Thank god for the comfortable swivel chair and the pillow, which by default, was already there when I first came. And the people are really nice, so I think I'm quite thankful for that too.

This year's Raya is quite exciting. I will get to go out with the boyfriend, matching colours and all. I've always envied seeing couples wearing same colour on Hari Raya. Well not this year onwards! :D


I can't believe she is Singapore's Miss World 2009.  Total crap.

I'm 22 today.

But frankly, I don't feel like it's a special day today. I mean, yea sure I love the gifts and the birthday wishes from friends are lovely, but besides that, it feels like a normal day. Maybe it's because I had to work just now. And something screwed up at work and I feel that it was my responsibility to take care of it, even though they told me not to worry about it. Maybe because I had to overtime just now, almost 2 hours overtime.

But maybe because I have reached that certain stage when birthdays are almost just like any other day. You know what I call this stage? I call it... Adulthood. hahaha. And I am not ready for it.

I will post pictures up on Facebook. Just not today. I feel too tired, I need the bed.

So I only had like two hours of sleep last night justttt cos I was nervous. First day of internship and it is already so much fun.

In the morning, after being introduced to the twelve colleagues,  I did nothing, like literally. I just sat at my desk (yes, I have my own desk!), looking around the loft-y style office, taking in the morning silence and Monday blues. Then Sabrina, my supervisor, told me to extract a list of travel agents from a database.

I attended a small meeting in the afternoon.This week is apparently going to be a busy week for us. On Wednesday, a group of Hungarian travel agents will be coming for their familiarisation trip, and on Thursday, a large group of South Africans will be coming for their incentive trip. So we need to get a lot of things in order before they come.

I had to print out signages, prepare some gifts and design an itinerary. At 2.30pm, I had to follow 3 other colleagues to a whole lot of places to confirm reservations in restaurants, do some site inspection, buy some gifts at chinatown, all in the comfort of the company's mercedes car. hehehehe.

So first day was good. Tired, but good. No regrets starting early whatsoever. (:

You know why, when a couple hold hands, the guy's hand is always in front and the girl's at the back? I have a theory for it.

I believe that a guy's hand placed in front symbolises the pants in the relationship. He leads the way for the girl. He guides the way they are going. He tells other people that he's the man. He wants to show the world that the girl is his. hahahaha. Do you even get what I'm trying to say? Oh, never mind!

I always love the feeling of security everytime Nazreen hold my hand. (:

Internship starts tomorrow oh my god so scary!!!!!!!

sacrifice
to surrender or give up, or permit injury or disadvantage to, for the sake of something else

patience
the quality of being patient, as the bearing of provocation, annoyance, misfortune, or pain, without complaint, loss of temper, irritation, or the like



I must practice these.

2 papers down, 1 more to go. I can't wait for Thursday to end.

But this Thursday also marks the last of so many things. The last time I'd routinely call Alvina at Marsiling to go school together. The last time Lam and I will joke about something dirty, or curse non stop about some random stuff. The last time I'd make fun of Shuyi and her small eyes. The last time I'd bitch with Gwen. The last time I will call Kok the slut. The last time I'd step into the school until graduation. The last time I'd take an exam paper.

I was cramming some last minute stuff into my brain just now, and I suddenly thought of graduation, all of us dressed in robes holding our well-earned diplomas. Oh that day will come sooner than I know. And I will cry - this I can guarantee. haha.

As much as I hate school, I will miss all the little things that happened. It's hard to believe that 3 years is almost up and we will all go in different directions after that. It's sad, but exciting too.


It's one week til my internship starts. One week til some friends leave for Disney. One week til I turn 22 hehehehe. I swear, I don't feel like my age.

This new game is just so cute.

I don't know what to do anymore.

There's no other way when it comes to the truth, so keep holding on.